I'm hoping that maybe the fact that the last IUI was weird and painful means maybe it worked? Because it was miserable. Cervixes are NOT meant to be lifted - that is what I learned as tears ran down my face and I probably left permanent fingernail indentations in my husband's hand. I am even more comfortable with my decision now that that was our LAST Clomid/IUI cycle....
So now we're in the two week wait (tww). I hate the two week wait. It is just cruel. There is NOTHING you could be actively doing to get pregnant...but don't know if it worked for TWO WEEKS. A HALF A MONTH. FOURTEEN DAYS. It's way too long.
Here's how the TWW usually goes.
Day 1 - oh, thank God we don't have to have any more sex this month - the rest of it is just for fun
Day 2 - I don't think it worked. No. It probably didn't work
Days 3-13 - Was that a twinge? Am I having mild cramping or is that something I ate... Are my breasts more tender than usual? To drink that one glass of wine or not... I don't feel different...I'm probably not pregnant. What if I am pregnant? And so it goes..on and on and on.
Day 13 - (every month so far) Period starts before my pregnancy blood test at the clinic...hopelessness ensues
Day 14 - they MAKE you go get the test...even though you know it's negative - SO aggravating
Start the whole cycle over again.
At least I know I will NOT be riding the Clomid roller coaster again. Who knows? If Spring ever comes, maybe I'll even get to exercising again...
Starting to research the IVF process/steps/medications for June. Let me know if any of you have some IVF experiences!
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